Susan Smiles

PenPals

hi susan, i was wondering if you could put me on your penpal page.
i was first abused when i was 6 years old, i got raped my my uncle. i havent told anyone to this day. everything was calm until i was 11 years old. my granddad died, and my mum was getting very stressed, and she started hitting me really bad. because i was a swimmer, every time i didnt do well, she used to batter me black and blue.
i moved out when i was 15, and lived with my dad, who is heavily into drugs, and his friends used to abuse me when he wasnt there. i decided to move out, so i was living in a hostel with people who were again, heavily into drugs and drink, so i got involved with alcohol a lot, and im still suffering with drink. i havent told anyone as i find it hard to get help here.
i am now living in my own bed-sit. the building in which i live there are 40 residents all about the same age as me.
when i first moved in, it was okay, but after about 3 weeks, i got attacked by one of the residents. he raped me 3 times. i cant tell anyone, as if i do and he gets evicted, he has really hard friends who could basically kill me.

please if there is anyone who could help me cope with this, an older woman with experience, could you put my email up so they could email me? its angelfish1988@hotmail.com

thankyou so much

tanya
xxx