Susan's Story

My name is also Susan and I have a little here to share with you all. This is from when I was about seven. I remember feeling extremely cold as we picked fireman up and trying to hid behind bitches seat. I even tried to sleep but could not. I could hear them talking but not really hear them. For everything I was ever afraid of nothing compared to the fear I had at that time. Some how I had finally managed to fall asleep but was awakened as fireman lifted me out of bitchs car. He held me a lot like Judy did but he was harder not as soft as her. He was telling me that I was going to become his that weekend and how i will forever wear his mark. I was going to learn to be servant to him. He was telling me that I would love him as he loved me. He told me I would shake no more. I can still feel his words from his deep chest vibrate into my side where we were connected. I wanted so much to escape but I could not. That is when I saw the first woman. There she was tied to a tree just kind of hanging there with her arms high up in the air unable to move. There was no clothing on her. He saw me look at her and he told me that I would do that for him someday. I would stay there for days if I had to. I could not stop my shaking it got faster with every step he took. Then thankfully for a while I escaped. Next I can remember the pain that I felt as something was clenched real tight down there. It shot a pain I thought I could not bare. I was told by people I did not know that it would not be long before the area dies and then I will be his. I tried to get rid of the pain but I could not move. It was so cold yet it was so hot and I had to break free. The woman next to me told me to relax she had the same thing done to her and
if I relaxed and breathed easy the pain would soon go away. Again I escaped into myself and Sally was there to keep me company. She told me she would stay with me. I then could feel myself be lifted to another more soft place. The burning was still there and I could not ignore it and I could not get back. I was so tired and my body ached so I did not fight with anyone. The woman that brought me to the new room brought me a small pill and told me to take it, it would make me feel better and boy was she right. Sometimes even now when things get to where I feel I can not deal I wish I could find a pill that could do what that one did. It seemed like everyone was singing all around me. I even think I was singing blowing in the wind at one time and that is the first time I was really able to look at him. Actually
it is the only time I ever really looked at him that I can really remember. I can remember that he looked at my burning and said it was a very nice job. That now I was his and I would never forget it forever and well you know he is right. Thanks to that weekend and how bitch made it so I went i will never ever forget about it and how i became his. there is more to this i know but i find it very difficult to deal with it so as for now this is all i can share.
Take care,
Susan