Star's Story

I will make this brief. I have read many of the stories and my heart aches. A simple run down of my story I am sure is more than sufficient. I am no.4 in a family of nine daughters. All of the same father you ask, no, no, no, my mother had been married 23 times that I could think of and I quit counting in the seventies. The topic of this web site is abuse and not number of marriages so I shall input a small bit of the life of nine little girls. When the abuse started and with who........anybody's guess. But, the highlight of abuse came when my mother, who only came home once a week at best, began to yank us out of bed at night ( if you call a mattress on the floor a bed) and line us up and allow her boyfriend the pick."Their Girl." Quit the honor. My co-dependent self soon learned how to get the attention of the
suitor and keep the little ones from being the honored girlfriend. I spent half of my young years promising my younger sisters I would grow up and take them away from that. At eighteen years old and being married only eight months a judge granted me custody of five young girls and completely terminated all parental rights. Those girls are now grown and the saga continues. I am 41 and have five children of my own and much like the rest of you am taunted by the past. I see the different affects our childhood has on each of us. My story is really too horrific to go into in much more detail but, it is considered one for the
record books by most psychologists. The point, I am really not sure, maybe that life does go on and maybe I am still caught in the PLEASE GOD LET SOMEBODY CARE syndrom. The stories touch my heart and I wish I could help to show it doesn't matter the severity of the abuse............the damage is the same. I don't know what I wanted to accomplish from this letter I really don't but, maybe some of these people can realize it doesn't have to be repeated and it doesn't have to be by several people the abuse still changes you and thats okay. It's not our fault no matter what they say and there is a way to realize
the light at the end of tunnel even if we don't believe it is there.

Starbabyyr60