Samm's Story

hi my name is Samm, i was at the hands of sexual abuse for 7yrs, my dad started abusing me when my alcoholic mother walked out on us. it started at just an over affeccious cuddle then things develped further. i was only 7 wen it started.he told me i was his little angel and was very specil 2 b recieving these special kind of lovings.i didnt have much family so didnt know how 2 approach any one about it so i just lived wiv it. it eventually stopped 6mths B4 my 14th birthday..only because i fell pregnant wiv his child. wen i gave birth 2 my baby boy in october dad told me i had 2 tell noone that it washis baby or else i would get into trouble.he told social services i had been very friendly with a boy from school. i went along wiv this but refused 2 give any names.my mums dad died in dec after my son was born. i managed 2 catch 5mins with her after the funeral. we got talkin. she gave me her number and told me 2 call if i wanted a chat. i started sufferin really badlywiv depression which i now know it 2 b post-natal depression.icontacted my mum the one day bout 2wks after 1st speakin to her and begged her 2 pick me up....i moved from wales 2 england leaving my baby boy behind, howcouldi take him-mum didnt even know he was born! but she soon found out, she got the same story at eveny1 else it took me 5yrs 2 tell her the truth...she called me a liar!! my baby boy still lives wiv my dad-he will b 8 in october but im fighting for custody.
2 this day very few ppl know he is my sons dad so he runs free...maybe one day ill tell aurthorities but until that day all i can do it try and cope and get my son back...ill make decisions from there .
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thanks for doing this website,its helped me 2 know there is other sufferers out there! ive also emailed one other person on there. im waitin on a reply.
it gives me alot of hope that i will get through this thanks again Samm XX