Susan Smiles

PenPals

hi,
my name is robyn.i dont feel like much of a survivor right now.i think i am making myself and my family crazy.my brother molested me when i was between 4 and 8 years old.my whole life i stayed busy,so i didnt have to think or feel.recently my husband accepted a new job in las vegas,so here i am,alone ,no friends,and way too much time on my hands.all of these feelings i am now feeling are making all of us miserable.i dont know what to do.i am 39 years old and have never forgotten what happened to me,but staying busy kept me safe.now i feel like i am dwelling on the past.i made it this far in my life why is this so crippling me now? if there is anybody who is going through the same,please feel free to offer any advice.
i am glad i found this site,it is really comforting.thanks for listening!!!