PB's Story

I really don't know what I'm doing here. But here goes. I started therapy because I found out my 12 year old son had been sexually abused by a teacher 5 years before. I got him into therapy; while going through that I started having problems -- night terrors, the hand touching me waking me up no one is there. Waking up crying hard with wet pillow from tears. That had already been happening for years, just didn't understand it. Sexual dreams as an infant with my dad. Whew!
Got into therapy too. Dealing with my son's stuff -- therapy meetings
3-4-5 times a week. It all started bringing up my stuff. So I start therapy, this is in the early 90's. Diagnosed with PTSD, learned a lot about my behavior and choices made in life. Patterns of mine. My dad was paranoid schizophrenic. I remember violence, him talking in some other language I knew he didn't know. My mother sacrificed me to take care of crazy drunk dad while she took brother and sister into bedroom with her to protect them. I remember Dad giving me quarters, and saying shhh, it's a secret from your mother. Then there's just a complete black wall.

Ok. Had 3 - 4 years of therapy, understood a lot. Had to quit because of present life stresses were just too much to deal with too. Now 10 -
12 years later I'm having health problems. I notice PTSD symptoms. I start researching online. I'm pretty sure I have Complex PTSD, and health related problems. Low thyroid, low DHEA, low Cortisol, severe adrenal fatigue, and so many other physical symptoms that seem to stem from severe early childhood abuse with very long duration. I cannot deal with stress at all the last 20 months or so without getting sick or just bone tired. Can you direct me as to what to do now. I'm seeing a doctor for thyroid, and he's having me take DHEA supplements. I just don't know where to turn next. There's more to mention, but I'll wait to see if it's needed.

Thank you PB.