Pam's Story

Hello Susan, My name is Pam , I am 39 yrs. old and a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I have enjoyed reading your web. The world needs more people like you. I don't really know where to start, maybe where I am at in my life now. I am in my healing process now, closure has finally came to me. My #1 thanks goes to GOD! I am also in the process of going before a grand jury about my childhood sexual abuse. For 2 years my demons have really anguished, with my wonderful counsler,antidepressants and most of all my faith in GOD I am coming full circle. My story starts at the age of 6. I have 2 siblings also who were abused. I am the oldest and I do believe it affected me harder. I always remembered trying to save them. My brother was 4, my sister 3. This monster who molested us was our stepfather.
Not only did he sexually abuse us he physicaly and mentaly abused us. My mother was always away before he would abuse us. You see she worked nights. He would come into our room at night and wake us from a dead sleep. He would take us for car rides in the night also.He would beat us. The times that really haunt me were the night time baths. He would drown us, hold us under while the others siblings watched. You could barely breath. My story is alot more detailed that I will present to the grand jury. On Sept.11,2001 that was my first scheduled appearance. I traveled from NC to WV. But as we know that was a day we will nwver forget. I then turned everything over to GOD. Since that day there has
been a calm in my life,but GOD has been sending me signs to go on with this.See I do know one thing there will be judgement day! But also I do believe he must face mans law. People have said leave him alone hes an old man, but I see no difference between an old man and a child.My E-mail address is
pg112591@aol.com A SURVIVOR!!!!!!!!!