Susan Smiles

PenPals

I would love to have a penpal. I am 24yrs old, married and scared. I was raped when I was 2 and a half which lasted until I was about four. Then I was molested at the age of about six until I was about eight. My dad got abusive when I was about nine, mentally and physically. It is funny how I can remember all that that took place so many years ago and not remember what someone says to me a second later. I do not work, I stay in my apartment. I am so scared of people, when someone knocks on my door I run to the back of the apartment. If my husband is here, he comes to the room I am in to let me know that they are gone. I have seen a therapist many of them ,but none has yet helped. It hurts my husband to see me like this. He has suggested for me to take these men to court, but I don't want my family to hate me. I don't know what to do. My husband has moved me a few states away from my family, hoping it would help me. My husband is a kind, loving and caring person. And he wants to help me so bad. But, I am scared to leave my home. It has gotten so bad that when I do watch t.v. I turn the volume down so low so no one outside will know I am home. I just sit here with my heart pounding so fast and hard it scares me. I don't want to be posted on the internet. But if you want to be my penpal, I would be thankful for it. If you would like to know my full story just let me know.

Thank you, Mary