My name is Sandra and I was abused by my father for as long as I can remember until I left home at 18. My father was a preacher. I became very self destructive, and even became a prostitute, a profession he suggested to me when I was 16. Crazy.

Well like all of us I have good days and bad, more bad than good unfortunately. But I’m married to a wonderful man now who supports me most of the time, though he has his own battles to fight, and sometimes we clash. I wrote this poem during one of the worst times I’ve had in the last 2 years, and couldn’t believe that the little girl I once was is still inside crying. It really took me by surprise. I thought I’d share it.

I really enjoyed reading on your site, thankyou - Sandra


Looky here

well looky here its lucky me
what is it that my daddy sees
its quiet and cold and much too dark
waiting for that awful draft

i wrap up tight around my toes
just a tiny hole for my nose
its warm in here under the covers
trying to keep out familial lovers

lets see what you have there
baby girl
i'll show you mine
i'll rock your world

floating above the world below
i close my eyes and see the show
dont look at me im the highest
hush now baby please be quiet

daddy loves you little girl
you keep his secret like a squirrel
dig down deep and bury it there
and float away high in the air

it feels so good doesnt it honey
it feels better than all the money
mom and dad cant give you much
but pop can show you how to touch

but im so far away up high
i cant feel you touch my thigh
my heart is swelling i feel it big
no more to bury no room to dig

my tummy hurts mom
i dont feel so good
i couldnt find my way back down
i just kept on flying all around

i saw you sleeping all alone
while daddy showed me how to moan
im sorry mom i tried to stop him
i thought i was flying but i was flopping

out of water out of bed
i feel dizzy stop my head
there you go my baby girl
i told you i could rock your world

now close your eyes and go to sleep
and in the morning not a peep
because daddy loves
his little girl


and looky here
shes like a squirrel