Laura's Story

I AM A 28 YEAR OLD MARRIED MOTHER OF A DAUGHTER, IWAS MOLESTED BY MY UNCLE, IF YOU CAN CALL HIM THAT, HE NOT ONLY MOLESTED ME BUT KILLED THE PERSON I SHOULD BE. I SUFFER EACH DAY BUT I WILL SURVIVE WITH GOD'S HELP. I HAVE BEEN SUCIDAL SINCE I WAS 12 . HE MOLESTED ME FROM THE TIME I WAS 4 OR 5 . HE STARTED BY ASKING A FOR A BACK RUB, EACH TIME HE MADE ME GO A LITTLE LOWER, UNTIL HE FINIALLY RAPED ME, I CAN REMEMBER TELLING HIM THAT MY AUNT WAS COMING UP THE ROAD TO MAKE HIM STOP BUT HE DIDN'T CARE HE HAD TO FINISH NO MATTER HOW BAD I CRIED HE TOLD ME TO GET DRESSED AND THEN I HAD TO SIT THERE AND ACT LIKE NOTHING HAD HAPPENED WHEN SHE GOT THERE. YEARS LATER I KNOW THAT SHE NEW EVERYTHING AND WAS HAPPY AS LONG AS HE DIDN'T TOUCH HER. MY BROTHER COMMITED SUICIDE HE WAS RAPING HIM TO AND MY SISTER TOO. LATER HE WOULD MAKE HAVE SEX AS HE WATCHED, THEN HE WOULD USE OBJECTS. HE DIED RIGHT BEFORE MY DAUGHTER WAS BORN I WAS SO GLAD TO SEE HIM DIE SO HE COULD NOT HURT ANYONE AGIAN, NOW MY AUNT IS WORSE THAN HIM BECAUSE SHE NEW AND DID NOTHING, HE WAS A SICK BASTARD, SHE WAS JUST A MEAN UNCARING WOMEN. FORGIVENESS IS HARD I PRAY I CAN FORGIVE THEM BOTH AND I WOULD LIKE TO BE ABLE TO GET ON WITH MY LIFE BUT IT IS ALWAYS WITH ME, MAKING ME SICK MENTALLY AND PHISCALLY, THE OBJECTS HE USED I THINK CAUSE ALL OF MY BACK AND PELVIC PAIN.
LAURA