Kristen's Story

Hello my name is Kristen. I am 30 years old and was abused by my father when I was about 5 years old. For some reason the abuse stopped when I turned about 13 years old. There was never any penetration, but a lot of oral sex. We lived on a ranch with my mother and my younger sister. I later found out that he never touched her.

When I was 19 I married a wonderful man. I told him about my abuse. 6 years into our marriage I started getting flashbacks during sex and I started having nightmares about my dad. I decided to tell my mother and my sister what happened and confront my father.
When I told my mother that my father had sexually abused me he admitted it and my mother decided to leave him. She lived at my house for about a week and my husband and I helped her move into an apartment. About a month later she moved back in with him. She told me that for what it was worth my father was sorry for what happened and I should forgive him for what he had done.

I never got an apology from him and I don’t think it would help if he did. Apparently he has found GOD and is now living a great life. I haven’t talked to my mother or father for over 4 years now. I have recovered from the pain of the abuse, but I am now to a point I have anger towards my mother. I am starting to recall some of the conversations that we had when she was separated from him. She would say things like, “Oh I remember that” or “I remember you never wanted to be around your father”. I have this feeling that she knew what was going on.

I just recently found out that I had Pelvic Inflammatory Disease (PID) and was treated in the hospital for it when I was about 10 years old. My mother told me throughout my life that I was in the hospital for a kidney infection. I’m not sure how to deal with this anger just yet.

Thank you for letting me tell my story.
Mskris555@hotmail.com