IT'S NOT EASY

it's not easy to say i tried,
to protect my temple once filled with pride,
the edges that once gleamed,
and fought to hold my bubbling self esteem,
are now in a million pieces,
shattered, bruised, torn and battered.

it's not easy to say he cared,
he threw away the trust and love we once shared,
they all flooded in, ready to help,
yet none of them could understand how i really felt,
they peeled each layer away,
until i had no hiding spot, no longer could i stay.

it's not easy to say those days are gone,
but slowly and painfully i'm moving on,
those dreams and nightmares are a thing of the past,
helping me to realise his love was never meant to last.

it's not easy to say i tried,
but now i'm happy with my regained pride,
my temple has been repaired, and i no longer feel scared,
i'm proud to say i've hung in there,
through all the worries, and despite the fear.

Amie