Susan Smiles

in hiding

inside i see a different reality far from the normalcy encountered called day to day living a paradigm
of false admiration and joy only to weep and question me, was i ever real before was it ever true?
what i've told you hasn't meant a thing in this oblivion i live aside from others rejected and alone inside a new life bleeds within me like water from a stone still wounded carrying it along and hurt from times long gone i give in i collapse i find the words hiding