Susan Smiles

PenPals

I am a 39yr old woman who was abused by her adoptive father,and his evil and vile family,the whole family was of a criminal society, this went on for 13yrs+.I lived with a mentally abusive husband for 13yrs. I ran away from home and abandoned my children to get away from him. My children are well taken care of,although I have not seen them for 10yrs. right now I'm a recovering addict. I'm trying to learn how to forgive the abuses in my life,so I can enpower my life and move on,or am I destand to a lonely and insecure life?I was a military wife for 16 years,I've been married twice.I have alot of baggage in my life.I live with my parents {not good!} because I don't have all the skills I need to make it on my own,even though I'm making progress in my life,I tend to hit brick walls,and for everystep for ward, I get knocked back two step.I just keep telling myself I'm down but not out! I'm a fighter,and I know my best revenge is to s! ucceed. so if anyone out there has been through or is going through something simular please write to hurt and lonely.Thank-you and have a nice day!