Susan Smiles

PenPals

As a 5 year old little girl, I looked up to my father as a strong, smart, good man. I feared him when I did something wrong and I feared him when he came into my room at night.I did my best to be a good little girl and to make him "LOOK" like a wonderful father to others. What a responsibility for such a young child. The mental, physical & sexual abuse continued until I was 12. I am now 32, a mother of a 3 year old daughter. I am happily married to a wonderful, patient, loving man. There are still times I struggle to stay "In the present". Those memories will NEVER go away. I can't allow this evil person to have control over me anymore. The greatest revenge is to never lower my standards to his level, and be a happy, healthy and "In control" woman. So, Jim Thomsen, know this.......You were never a father, a dad, or a confidant. I have pity for you. But, Look at me now! I just pray others who have been through what I have, will be able to say that and believe it. God
bless the little children who still dwell within us. Deneane Magliano