Susan Smiles

PenPals

I am 38 years old and cannot contact my family because my mother does not believe me and my younger sister about what I finally told her about in recent years - about what happened to us all those years ago with our older brother and mum's boyfriend. (One of many boyfriends) She blames us for our brother having to be in Australia and I feel I now have no-one. My younger sister and I grew up in sheer hell. I absolutely hate and despise my mother now. In fact all this has brought even more memories back for me. I feel so lonely. I shouldn't because I am married with 2 beautiful children. I think it is just Christmas time looming and everyone asks what are you doing with your family on that day. I scream inside because I can't tell them why I don't have anything to do with them. Instead I smile and holdback all the tears. Even after all this time. So hello. I have no idea what you have been through, but I think I just need
to get help putting all this stuff out the window. Sorry about this, but there's not a whole lot of people one can turn to. Debbie.