Susan Smiles

Little girl with the curly hair ,

Freckled upturned nose and with a pain filled stare ,

Scared and anxious .. it was so unfair ,

What would they do today .. THAT EVIL PAIR ?

Not for you a world of love and cuddles ,

Of comfort and joy ,

No fun only troubles ,

A world full of pain and rejection ,

One full of scars and humiliation .

Told you were ugly ,

By a mother so cruel ,

Her venomous rage inflicted daily upon you ,

Scared little mouse already perfectly groomed

As the evil of THAT “stepfather” loomed .

But the photos from those terrible years ,

Show a little angel , who should have been loved ,

Innocent little child who was told she was bad ,

Never receiving the protection and care she should have had .

Instead you were tortured , in body and soul

Solitary little girl , you were cruelly UNLOVED ,

Living a life full of secrets , hatred and fear .

But now at last the secrets are out ,

Now it is their turn to suffer ,

If they have a conscience to realise what my life was and STILL is about .

But I cannot let them win ,

Inside I know I am strong , I know it was their sin

The pain I can never erase but perhaps inner peace

One day will find it’s place

For it to settle in my heart as I live out my days .