Bree's Story

Hi my name is Bree,
I am a survivor of sexual abuse..... this has been a very long journey for me and my family.
I have blocked alot of abuse and I am not sure how old I was when it began? 6 or 7 maybe and lasted until about 12, the one thing here is it doesnt really end we just learn as survivors how to deal with this and the worst thing is, it never goes away and your children wonder why they cant spend the night at anyones house and I just tell them that God put me on this planet to be their "protector" as I wish someone would have done for me!!!!! I am 41 years old and have 5 children one grown and the rest still at home, I was abused by my grandfather and he molested every female in our family at some point(aunts,cousins and my mom) as I got older I wondered how my mom could of kept me around him knowing what she knew but she is in great denial and has been a meth addict for over 30 years and that is how she deals with it.....
My mom is a very evil person and she let countless others do this to, her male friends, a babysitters husband and the list goes on.... I pretty much put all of this in a dark place and shoved it all down until 2 years ago when my mom's sick boyfriend molested my 3 year old grandaughter!!!! we went to court and tried to get custody of our grandchildren and with 3 lawyers involved no one was willing to protect my grandaughter we had her for 10 months and 10 months she was safe in our care and not once did they ever investigate the molester!!!!
my daughter also lives with my mom and her two children and I pray everyday she gets out of that sick situation, I broke the family secret and have payed highly for doing that I have been exiled out of my whole family but its okay because I moved far away from all of that evil in my moms house and my children will never be sacraficed to her again... I am still trying to recover emtionally from that trial and I almost had a nervous breakdown and It would be great to have a pen-pal, I live in a very small town that we just moved to last december and I havent found any type of support group yet and this site is wonderful.... just to read that there are others like me and I am not alone. Everyone take care of yourselves through this journey called life.....
Bree