Anonymous

I was sexually abused for 3 years between ages of 12-15 by a foster father who raised me.I tried to tell but was overlokked for I alse o had a lot of emotional problems that were always put off as being because I was "DUMPED"....I then went on to deal with the pain that was inside of me by drinking,drugs,and a lot of other dysfunctional behaviors.Well after 12 suicide attempts and 3 marriages,I decided to get it together...I was pregnant with my 2nd baby and wanted a better life for all of us....my first child...a daughter...was 5 when I got into a church and started praying for a good christian man.I still hadn't worked on my issues...only put a spiritual bandage on it...Well in my still dysfunctional way I grabbed onto the 1st man to come along that seemed to fit my order.We were married a few months later then within a couple of months I was thrown backwards some 20 years to finally deal with my past...and in the dealing with my issues to get my then 11 year old daughter back out of the system after she was abused by this husband for I couldn't be there for her at thar time...that infuriates me most of all...how I let her down then...we are long past that now and she is happily married with 2 sons...the apples of my eyes.God Bless you and all who seek healing