Anonymous
Hi I'm a 33 year old female who was sexual abused at
the age of 8 till 11 by my stepfather. Don't remember my mom or brothers
being around those years Just remember him raping me day and night
and putting objects up me.At 111/2 i was put in a home cause they
said he was a alcholic and i couldn't see my mother for a while. Well
he went to AA he never touched me again but i still couldn't move
home i was to angree i felt my mom loved him more at age 16 i came
home at 17 i left home still alot of angree in me i hated them so
much I had a son at 18 years of age divorce his dad in two years got
married 1 year after thet to my daughters dad we were together 5 years
and got a devoice married again love this man he understands and he
is the first i told about what happen to me not in details.Now we
are going through a trial cause the same man sexual abused my daughter
at the a! ge of 4 till 7 It has been rough for us and sad I don't
trudt anyone cause they told me he wouldn't do it again well he has
been all these years cause i have a brother who is handicapp and it
has been happening to him all this time intill my daughter came forward.
I was angree at my mom for not making sure my daughter was protected
while in her care but we thought it was over i hate myself for trusting
the doctors and for not protecting my little angel.i hate him for
taking her trust and for threating her if she ever told anyone cause
i would always tell her if anyone ever touches you in bad places to
tell me and she was scared cause of him I just want him dead. I had
to never talk about what he did to me cause i locked it in side and
kept to myself and now all the nightmares are back and all the pain
I still can't really talk about this it hurts I fell dirty . But i
will make sure my daughter don't hold things in i want her to talk
about this any time she wants cause i am h! ere for her unlike my
mom was for me.i would die for my daughter to be happy all the time
she is my sunshine when I'm down when she smiles it lights up everything
and helps me want to go on Hopefully one day I can talk about this
and let it all out so i won't be angree Thank you for listening Writer
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